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Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Confessions of a working mom

Every morning when I leave my house Olivia cries. It breaks my heart. Today I decided I want to go back to being a stay at home mom.
I am still learning our new program here at work called “Best for babies.” I walked into a meeting the other day and one of the supervisors said, “Melanie I have a baby for you.” Confused I asked, “Whose baby?” The supervisor then said, “Sarah’s baby.” Then I asked, “Sarah you’re having a baby?” I totally had a blonde moment! Sarah had a “Best for Babies” case for me.
Speaking of blonde moments; I blame all my blonde moments on mommy brain. So far it’s working. People completely understand.
Before I went back to work I looked forward to having lunch without my kids, now I miss them so much lunch isn’t enjoyable without them.
I have not cooked dinner in so long. Getting home from work I am too tired to do anything. I need to get motivated to start planning out meals that are easy to make….any ideas anyone?
I keep thinking I have grey hairs, so I pull them out and when I look at them I realize they are only blonde hairs!  I need to stop pulling my hairs out or I’m going to be bald!
Monday was Olivia’s first day sleeping in a toddler bed. It took me three hours to get her to go to bed. Last night, Anthony put her to bed and it took him 5 minutes. I can’t lie, I am jealous!
Normally I don’t let the heartbreaking stories of the kids I work with break my heart. I have to keep my guard up. Yesterday however I observed a kiddo at Child Crisis and I called my hubby and cried about how sad I felt for this little guy. All in a days work right?
Anytime my work hints at my coming back to work permanently I remind them that I plan on leaving in March. I hope that’s ok but I want them to remember I am only temporary.
I am so behind on e-mail it’s not even funny.
I wish I could ditch work and go shopping. Wouldn’t that be fun? Oh wait, with what money???
I fall asleep watching House Hunters every single night. And I love guessing which house they are going to choose. If they people are too annoying or act too entitled I switch over to Untold Stories of the ER.
Sharing an office with six women is often crazy. I overhear stuff that I never wish I heard. Seriously. I never wish I heard. Why do people talk about personal (I mean personal) things over the phone in front of people?

I know that a lot of people like Yo Gabba Gabba but I think it is the strangest most annoying show ever.

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22 Comments:

At January 11, 2012 at 3:09 PM , Blogger Erin said...

Sorry you are already homesick being away from your little ones :( At least you know that this is only temporary! :) Stay strong!

 
At January 11, 2012 at 3:14 PM , Blogger ThisLittleMomma said...

This post made me smile- I was actually just thinking about writing a post similar to yours- only backwards. I stay at home. I agree with you, I always change House Hunters for the same reasons, and have yet to figure out why Yo Gaba Gaba is so amusing to little ones! :)

 
At January 11, 2012 at 3:31 PM , Blogger Ashley said...

I am sorry that you are missing your little ones. :( I can not imagine having the job you do and seeing the things that you do. I don't think I could handle it.

p.s. I love house hunters! I just recently discovered love it or list it. Have you watched that one?

 
At January 11, 2012 at 3:33 PM , Blogger Cassie @ Live.Laugh.L0ve. said...

:( I'm sorry you are having a hard time being away from your little one's. It happens though, right? I've seen the show house hunter's a few times, I like the episodes I have watched! Some people are pretty dang picky though!

 
At January 11, 2012 at 3:42 PM , Blogger Jennifer said...

Crockpot meals are always good, you can get them together the night before, put it in the fridge and start it before you leave in the morning. And I totally agree about Yo Gabba Gabba!

 
At January 11, 2012 at 3:44 PM , Anonymous cate @ wild ruffle said...

I'm pretty sure that the people who came up with Yo Gabba Gabba had to be high. How else could you come up with that nonsense?

When I had newborn twins, I watched a TON of House Hunters, since it always seemed to be on in the middle of the night during feedings!

 
At January 11, 2012 at 3:46 PM , Blogger mistergandme said...

Sorry to hear about you missing your little ones... Just remember in a few months you might be wishing you could eat lunch alone again! You really do amazing work and you are probably such a bright light in the lives of the people you are serving.

 
At January 11, 2012 at 4:53 PM , Blogger Nicole said...

I hope you'll feel less home suck. Feel better

 
At January 11, 2012 at 5:11 PM , Blogger Lydia @ See Beautiful said...

Ow, this post made my heart swell a little bit. You're helping to give them a wonderful life by working and that's so important. I just can't imagine how hard it is for you to do it. As for easy meals...my husband is at the grocery store now. I've simply resigned to saying, "I don't know what we're having for dinner and there's no food in the house." He deals well with things from there.

Happy seeing beautiful!

 
At January 11, 2012 at 5:11 PM , Blogger Bailey@Lost&Found said...

I don't have kids-yet...but, when I do, I pray I am lucky enough to be a stay at home mom. I don't know if i could go to work every day and leave them. So, I don't have my own little one's yet, but I somehow know exactly how you feel. I'm so sorry you have to feel this way at all.

And, I LOVE house hunters! I seriously watch it every night! I love picking out my future dream home!

 
At January 11, 2012 at 6:17 PM , Blogger Meg@Domesticated-ish said...

I feel your pain mama. They can't all be good days. My husband has a job interview tomorrow for a higher paying job and we decided that if he got it that I would be able to stay at home. The thought brings a tear to my eye because I want it so badly. He could stand to have a better job anyway so it's not entirely selfish. Some women are just meant to be with their babies!!

 
At January 11, 2012 at 6:20 PM , Blogger Life in Dawleywood said...

Oh girl, I can totally relate. Except I'm not planning on quitting until our house is paid off in oh about 5 years, ugh! I can't imagine how hard it is to do the job you do. I could not handle it at all!

 
At January 11, 2012 at 7:45 PM , Blogger Cheeky D said...

I totally understand. With the girl being sick I hate having to go to work. I told my Man my days as a working Mommy are numbered. Good luck...thinking about you.

 
At January 11, 2012 at 8:56 PM , Blogger Kate said...

When I was working 15 hour days and wasn't home in time to make dinner for my hubby, my crockpot became my best friend. There are tons of easy & fast-prep recipes out there. Meals can cook all day, and then your family can just dig in whenever they want. Gooseberry Patch Super-Fast Slow Cooking book has great ones.
I hope the rest of your time back at work flies by for you!

 
At January 11, 2012 at 11:56 PM , Blogger Maria said...

hi melanie. i've seen you leave comments on a few of my favorite blogs and i decided, it was time to come and visit you.
i LOVE your blog. i've just read a few of your posts and i'm already hooked :)
what an amazingly trying and admirable job you have.
i'm sorry it has been so tough being away from your children. happy to read you'll be back where you want to be in the spring.

wishing you a wonderful week/end <3
maria

 
At January 11, 2012 at 11:58 PM , Blogger Maria said...

ps-whenever i babysit and yo gabba gabba comes on, i quickly reach for the remote :)

 
At January 12, 2012 at 3:25 AM , Blogger Mamarazzi said...

HUGE fan of house hunters but i fall asleep watching it all the time toooo what is it about that show!?

great confessions! i want you to invite youcome link them up for Friday Confessional on my blog, it's a great way to meet more fabulous bloggers!!

 
At January 12, 2012 at 3:31 PM , Blogger Trisha @ clarionwren.com said...

Melanie, I want to say that going back to work will get easier. You will come home less tired (as your body gets used to the new routine). I don't think you will ever miss your little ones any less. I stayed home with my son for 10 weeks after he was born. Then, I had to finish the school year (3 months). I had the summer off with him until I had to go back to work for one more year. It comforted me to know that he was being cared for (by my husband or our awesome sitter), but I still missed him. I thank God every day that I get to stay home with him right now, but dread the possibility that I may have to go back to work. For now, my place is with him.

Just follow your heart and listen to what God wants you to do. Know that many people are praying with you.

 
At January 12, 2012 at 7:58 PM , Blogger jessicaclarke said...

Sorry to hear you are missing them already, it's hard I went back to work for a while and was miserable. I hope you are able to be back home in March. BTW I wrote a review for 30 meals in one day basically you cook meals in one day and then freeze them till you r ready I only made 10 last time but it's nice to have them when you don't have time to cook Plus I'm sure you can just figure out some recipes you like and freeze them. Good luck!

 
At January 12, 2012 at 9:23 PM , Blogger Jess said...

I recently became a stay at home mom after 10yrs as a social worker in child welfare system (very famiiar with Child Crisis Center and Best for Babies :-) We became foster parents as a result of working in this system and seeing the need which eventually led me to stay at home. I never saw myself doing that and it has been an adjustment for sure, but I love it too! Loved your post. Totally understand missing the kids, feeling like that is where you belong, but also missing the "grown up" lunches and a different kind of work than the work you do as a stay at home mom. It's an interesting position we are in as women that is not something dads face. Found you on the weekend hop, now following!

~Jess @ makingoverthemartins.blogspot.com

 
At January 19, 2012 at 10:44 AM , Anonymous Chele in SC said...

I just found your blog today as I was on the Women Living Well site. Your love story with Anthony is so very touching. Thank you for sharing how our Lord can redeem all of us.

Have you been over to Organizing Junkie for her menus? You can find all sorts of different recipes over there. go have a look: http://orgjunkie.com/menu-plan-monday-guidelines/recipe-index-with-printable-grocery-lists

The other week I picked up a beef roast from Sam's for about $12 and I was determined it was going to feed my family of 4 for at least 3 meals. First night it was roast beef (cooked in the crock-pot), second night it was used with some onions, mushrooms and kale over quinoa (you could use rice), third night I can't remember, maybe tacos and the fourth was soup. Granted my family doesn't care for soup, but I keep stressing to them, soup along with beans and rice helps our food budget.

So if you have a crock pot, use it. The stuffed shells you featured in a post, because they are time-consuming for me to make, I make sure to do up at least a double batch if not more. Then I have at least two+ meals in the freezer for days when "mommie brain" is an issue.

Leaving your kiddos and working with children that have been neglected/abused is never easy. I'm sorry you have this season of life to walk through, but thankfully it is temporary.

Now to look around your blog some more.

 
At January 21, 2012 at 1:08 AM , Blogger Kristine Foley @ TheFoleyFam said...

Hang in there Momma! This is only temporary :) You are so strong!! XOXO This post was the most viewed at my Sunday FUNday linky party last week!! YAY YOU!! You will be featured this Sunday! Please feel free to grab a featured button and get your brag on ;) Hugs to you friend!

 

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